Jan 9, 2024
love.
It’s something I’ve honestly been starting to doubt or become agnostic about —and I say agnostic disparagingly here as a rather unfortunate state to be in— whether being in love (and thus, ideally* in love with life) was something other than magical; deadly, but magical. Well, romantic! You get it. Or if such is a fantasy; there seem to be conflicting reports. *I say ideally, because sometimes, sometimes oftentimes, life is about survival, in which case none of this matters.
And everyone knows about “love”, as in, yeah love isn’t a feeling it’s a commitment blah, yes, good, we know, but something about that statement never sits quite right with me. Cause, well, part of liking being with someone, is the “liking” part, the feeling of being with them, how life is with them; this is a matter of knowing which is called feeling.
feeling as knowing.
Might sound paradoxical, but intuition (a felt thing) is an internal, implicit wisdom we possess that we often can’t articulate, or articulate well. Tacit knowledge!—there’s a term for it, so it’s gotta be real. It’s a way of intuiting knowledge, and it’s fallible, as are all our senses and (ways of) knowing. It’s intrinsic, and has its point of view that is flawed, as is our more quantifiable, conscious knowing—it’s real nonetheless.
People who treat intuition like a superstition, something to be “argued away”, don’t ‘understand knowing’. I put that in quotes because I understand how arrogant that should sound. It’s not important to claim anyone ‘understands knowing’ here, but that we see to accept that we know more than we can articulate, and less than it gives us the right to be certain of. Ofc it sometimes gives us wrong advice; no one is spoon-fed wisdom or drinking from the fountain of Truth. It also needn’t be, because it’s a tool.
on an incomplete picture.
We are merely approximating reality; perceiving an incomplete picture and rendering an even less coherent one.
This is all is still a good thing though, because we are perceiving and rendering something! And so there is something for us to be in approximation of, and in relationship with.
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my apologies.
I have been tweeting way too much the past couple days, mostly because I had work off, was sitting on my ass on trains for too many hours, and because I’ve been feeling like censoring myself less lately. As an experiment, you know. So if our relationship is strained because I spammed your timeline (if so lucky I should have been) then please accept my apology
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Relevant Bible verses, if you’d like:
(1) 1.Cor 8:2 — If anyone imagines that he knows something, he does not yet know as he ought to know.
(2) Prov 11:2 — When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom.
(3) Prov 18:2 — A fool takes no pleasure in understanding, but only in expressing his opinion.
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High — heels — on my tippies
<3,
Sam
Sam - love watching your train of thought unfold as I read your writing. I know we may not see eye to eye on certain things, but just wanted to pop in and say: really enjoy reading what you’re chewing on.